Simply a phenomenal analysis, bestie. I'll just add that the past-present-future hauntology within the individualist liberal system becomes much more apparent once one considers that the person depicted in those memories aren't even the subject of experience. One may say "Past me was already queer", but there is no "past me", that is another person entirely, with different experiences, feelings and even biological body. Therefore, even the haunting of the present by the past and vice-versa is built and can be deconstructed, since that completely unconnected person only becomes "myself" once that connection is made, be it by yourself or by the larger machine, otherwise, it would just be a memory of another person that you store in your brain. I'm just saying this because many people seem to consider hauntology a "fact", like, they acknowledge the past is but a poltergeist, but believe that to be universal, somehow. Keep up the writing bestie ^^
There are obviously flaws with the born this way narrative, and I agree that queerness shouldn't have to justify itself, but in a lot of these posts you seem to be making the bolder claim that human sexuality is fluid/malleable and all one has to do is open their mind to the possibilities. Don't you think this disregards the entire homosexual experience of trying to want the opposite sex and being unable to? Growing up I always had a very high sex drive and thought I was wanted to be with men, yet always recoiled from their touch and was not aroused by the male form. Coming to terms with my lesbianism did feel like finding my "true self," though I don't understand where this impulse comes from and haven't been able to pinpoint a cause or starting point. All I know is that I've been aroused by women from childhood, that's how it's always been, and how it continues to this day. What do you think is the cause of seemingly inborn homosexuality?
Simply a phenomenal analysis, bestie. I'll just add that the past-present-future hauntology within the individualist liberal system becomes much more apparent once one considers that the person depicted in those memories aren't even the subject of experience. One may say "Past me was already queer", but there is no "past me", that is another person entirely, with different experiences, feelings and even biological body. Therefore, even the haunting of the present by the past and vice-versa is built and can be deconstructed, since that completely unconnected person only becomes "myself" once that connection is made, be it by yourself or by the larger machine, otherwise, it would just be a memory of another person that you store in your brain. I'm just saying this because many people seem to consider hauntology a "fact", like, they acknowledge the past is but a poltergeist, but believe that to be universal, somehow. Keep up the writing bestie ^^
both pleased that I'm not the only one thinking/writing about this and seething that I'm not half the succinct writer you are. phenomenal work
There are obviously flaws with the born this way narrative, and I agree that queerness shouldn't have to justify itself, but in a lot of these posts you seem to be making the bolder claim that human sexuality is fluid/malleable and all one has to do is open their mind to the possibilities. Don't you think this disregards the entire homosexual experience of trying to want the opposite sex and being unable to? Growing up I always had a very high sex drive and thought I was wanted to be with men, yet always recoiled from their touch and was not aroused by the male form. Coming to terms with my lesbianism did feel like finding my "true self," though I don't understand where this impulse comes from and haven't been able to pinpoint a cause or starting point. All I know is that I've been aroused by women from childhood, that's how it's always been, and how it continues to this day. What do you think is the cause of seemingly inborn homosexuality?
The few times I've raised these questions in one of your comment sections, I've gotten no response. I'd really appreciate some engagement.